It creeps up on me again.
‘You’ve really done it This Time’.
Breathing and hissing out its venom.
A voice I know too well and cannot ignore.
Did I think I could break the habits of a lifetime?
When life is littered with a trail of:
Tasks to be done
A heavy weight of expectancy burying all hopes of finally achieving my goals
This year I had a dream. I went public with it. Shared it openly. Making the humiliation complete. When failure seems to be a default position for a person with perfectionism allied with chronic physical illness and weakness.
” I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work” ~ Thomas Eddison
In writing about my fear of failure in following my God-sized dream, I am looking to follow Holley’s encouragement to also seek the truth that’s bigger than that fear.
The truth of who I am in Christ
As we allow His word to invade our hearts and minds, absorb its message and let it penetrate our understanding, it gradually fills the space where fear and dread once lived.
This may be one of those times for you too. Whatever your particular fear might be, will you join me as we ‘feel the fear and do it anyway’?
We are not alone. God has gone ahead of us to prepare the way we will walk in and we have the reassurance of His word:
“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but He has given us a spirit of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control” ~ 2 Timothy 1:7 (Amplified)
Rest our restless hearts in His Presence.
Immerse ourselves in His word.
Trust that God is changing us little by little.
Take tentative steps of faith that will grow with practise.
Believe we can be Overcomers in this area too.
Seek support and encouragement from others.
Pause to ponder:
What fears are holding you back from realising your dreams?
How do you plan to conquer them?
In this post I am linking up with Holley Gerth and the rest of the God-sized Dream team. We’d love you to join us on the journey. More to come next week!