Going solo?

The waters are choppy. I’m holding on for all I’m worth. One woman pitted against the buffeting winds and rising waves.

Not sailing as you might know it.
But attempting to keep this vessel afloat in stormy seas.

The tides of life and waters of adversity are trying to steer me off course.

 Others are alongside me in the battle to stay afloat. But I am managing this part solo. 

Apart from the wind of the Holy Spirit

The whispering voice through the weariness of a long-distance voyage

The Captain of the ship

The Helmsman

The Anchor
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You see, this week’s God-sized Dream challenge was to find ourselves a buddy. To team up with a friend to come on board to offer prayer, support and encouragement in pursuit of our dream. 

This friend could come from our regular, everyday lives or be an on-line companion. The idea being to write a post about who you have chosen and why.

Which left me in rather a dilemma.

Strangely, this is a dream I’ve shared openly on a public platform with people who don’t really know me, yet lacked the courage to discuss with those who do

I have very few close Christian friends who I could call upon at short notice for this task. Many are just too hard-pressed and busy for me to want to bother them, or simply not available.

I realise I haven’t opened up and shared as I could have done. 

My dream stayed locked up.

Perhaps this fragile, germinating seed of a dream might wilt or wither under the potential blaze of bewilderment, chill of indifference or heat of rejection from those whose opinion means so much to me?

Issues of trust and insecurity can be paralysing and stop us from moving forward

The hermit-like, housebound existence I have as an M.E and chronic illness sufferer can mean long periods without seeing another soul apart from my husband.

It is all too easy for friends to lose touch, drift apart, be separated by distance as well as time – despite the numerous ways we have to stay connected.

After making a few tentative enquiries that came to nothing, and praying about what to do, I began to see that I do indeed have a friend accompanying me on this journey.

This Friend is always with me

He planted this dream within my heart

He will nurture the seedling of promise and cause it to become a strong plant

With This Friend by my side I have no need to fear

I am covered in prayer

I am protected from harm
                                                                                                          
Supported. Encouraged. Loved.

After all, He created me, knows me inside out and cares deeply for me.

This could be a time to trust in the fact that God Himself is partnering with me and may want me to simply rest in and rely on Him for the time being.

In fact, God is partnering with all of us who invite Him in to our everyday lives, hopes and dreams, who open the door of their heart and ask Him in. He longs to be in relationship with you too

We also need other people and relationships to enrich our lives, share with, reveal hidden depths and aspects of our characters, offer help, support and encouragement on our journey through life.

I am grateful for those who relate to me that way and still open to the possibility of a friend partnering me for this God-sized dream journey!

In this post I am linking up with Holley Gerth and the rest of the God-sized Dream team. We’d love you to join us and share this journey of exploration, growth and change.

You can also like my page on Facebook or follow me on Twitter

I hope you will keep in touch so we can support and encourage one another in the pursuit of our God-sized dream and the challenges it brings and share our life with God in other ways too.

Stay blessed and encouraged!

6 Comments

  1. Lysa TerKerust, Pres P31 Ministry, has a saying that sometimes we need Jesus with skin on. Yes He is always there with us but sometimes we need Him to have skin (or at least a keyboard). I encourage you to continue to seek after the dream He has give you. Just take it one small step at a time.

    1. Hi Amy, I couldn't agree more. Going solo is not a choice I wanted to take. Though it might be what God wants for me at this stage of the journey. But I very much hope and pray for a supportive friend too! Thank you for the encouragement to keep pressing in to seek after and (hopefully) achieve the dream God has laid upon my heart. Blessings 🙂

    1. Hello Holley, lovely of you to drop in. Yes, I very much would like the support and encouragement of a friend and partner. Really appreciate your prayers for the right 'Jesus "with skin on" person to show up soon! Bless you 🙂

  2. Hi Joy, Perhaps the dream God wants you to chase is more Christian real-life friends. Could you volunteer to host a Bible study, or mentor a younger woman, or encourage another ME sufferer on the phone? Online friends are no substitute for friends who can see us, see our homes and lives and really know us. Maybe pray that God brings someone for you to invest in and love–a single mum, a refugee…, another house-bound person via phone and taxi visits?
    Are you able to take a taxi to a women's small group? Not seeing anyone except your husband for weeks/months at a time does not sound very healthy for either of you.
    Forgive me if these musings are not helpful..

  3. Ah-ha, another idea. Just be vulnerable and ask on your blog if someone would like to be your prayer partner. I already have 2 prayer partners and buddies from the God-sized dream team who are at my stage of writing and publishing, so sadly didn't feel I had the energy, as I explained, but someone else might?
    Blessings x

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